The Time is Now

My moment.

This moment in time is all I have,

This day of my life is the most important to grab,

This morning I rise prepared to do what it takes,

Today is my chance so the most I will make,

Out of each and every moment, including this very,

So this must be deep, I make sure that it’s heavy,

But never too much to bare, we’re already prepared,

And because it’s all we have I better not dare,

Sit idle and wait for the time to be right,

I can’t hope and pray that one day I’ll see the light,

I must live in the moment, and maximize the second,

I don’t know which tomorrow will end with me naked,

Lying in a wood box six feet down below,

Where the sound can’t be heard, and the days are so slow,

At least that’s what I think, what really happens, who knows,

But the one thing that’s certain, is that moment will come,

So I must live my dream now and not sweat what’s to come,

And what’s really to fear, one thing is already clear,

I know what not living my dream is like,

I spend every day here,

So I’m off to live now, I’m off to get to my moment,

And when I end my journey, in that last, quiet second,

Even then, I will own it.

They say today is the first day of the rest of your life; I’ve had to learn how true that is no matter how obvious it may seem. In that spirit it is so crucial that we maximize each day on our paths to our destinations; we never know when this journey will end so there is little time for fretting and never any time for regret.

We all have dreams and ambitions that we carry from day to day unfulfilled. These ideas and passions are bubbling with possibilities as they fill us with anxiety and fear. But our anxiety and fear are many times misunderstood; I think we misinterpret these feelings as reasons or signals to not pursue our goals. In my experience I have found that those feelings are more about our potential to achieve what we truly want if we are willing to step out and step up in our thoughts and actions. Deep down we know that we can get to where we want be, we’re just hesitant to go.

Well today is the day to get on your way; you know what I’m talking about and what needs to be done. And as you get on your way you will start to see that your expectations will begin to change as you begin to move towards your dreams. We only have so many moments in this experience; it’s only fair to ourselves that we make the most of them.

I love you,

Brandon

What's Love Got to Do With It

It’s deeper than you think

Action for real has got to start ASAP,

So many of my people hurting, they why rap,

The hurt isn’t always found in they pockets,

Most of the time it’s in their heart, and they can’t stop it.

It comes from not knowing who they truly are,

It stems from the fact that they look up to stars,

But not the ones in the sky up high, 

It’s the ones on t.v. fooling folks with their lies,

Got proud people feeling even less than they worth,

As they internalize it all, it turns into hurt

So now I’m alienated and feel I don’t belong,

Now I don’t give a fuck when it comes to right and wrong,

Don’t care if she got a man, I just see that thong,

Not thinking about no seed, I’m just trying to bust, then I’m gone,

Damn, now I done gone and repeated the cycle,

I need to look at the man in the mirror,

And change him up like Michael.

Now I’m working for nothing, at least that’s how it feels,

I’m stressed out all the time, plus my ole girl ain’t for real,

I mean she ain’t fake, just overcome by her fate,

She my baby mama to be, not just this chick I date,

We gonna be a family, and live happily ever after,

It’s gonna be all good, no worries, no pains,

That’s what she be telling me; now I know she insane!

I barely know this chick, just topped her off with my tip,

She popped up pregnant, and we keeping the kid,

So I’ll take care of it, and treat her like shit,

And hope our seed grow up to live better than this,

But what would’ve happened if I had held my nutt,

What would our future hold if I ain’t fall for her butt,

I don’t know, I can’t tell you what’s coming,

But I can promise you that fucking is about way more than just cumming.

As we take time to celebrate “love” this week always remember that everything we do is interdependent; so the outcomes of our relationships are dependent on the input of our lives.

We must be fulfilled alone to be complete together; completion can only be maintained as long as we remain a unit. Unity can only be sustained with unconditional love; it’s hard to be truly open and accepting to someone else if we aren’t okay with ourselves (better yet, in love with ourselves). All of this is very important for many reasons, but one of the most important is that the product or fruit of our union will be impacted immediately by the circumstances under which it is created.

As I said in the beginning, all that we do is interdependent; just a good thing to keep in mind as we go through life looking for love. We will eventually find that we didn’t have to look very far for love, and once it is found we must move forward maintaining it as lovingly as possible because the fruit we bear will ripen or rot to death based on how it is nurtured. We can’t take care of anyone else if we can’t take care of ourselves.

I love you,

Brandon

What's gonna make me happy

I often hear many people lamenting over true happiness not being in their lives. I like to ask them a simple question; What is going to make you happy? Generally it takes a while for them to answer, but occasionally the person knows exactly what they want. In many cases the person is seeking an object or a person, usually the attention of a person. In both cases I like to continue to ask questions, probing deeper so that we, but most importantly the other person, can understand the value they are placing on the person/thing they want. I believe that understanding the value of whatever you desire is paramount to truly enjoying it once you get it.

Understanding value is crucial because it allows us to have realistic expectations for the outcomes we earn in our lives.

For instance, I once called myself being in love. I had a fiancé that made me feel good about myself because so many other people appreciated her attractiveness, both physically and emotionally. Because so much of our relationship was based on immature feelings and actions it didn’t last; however once our relationship was over I missed my ex tremendously and I vowed to get her back. I eventually figured out that what I valued most about our relationship was how good I felt about how everyone else was impressed by her as opposed to truly valuing the mutual love, respect, and admiration that comes with a positive, mature, and sustainable relationship. Eventually after months of languishing and agonizing over not being with my ex I had a small chance at reconciliation; and I found the idea of reconciliation so anticlimactic at that point that I had no desire at all to even explore the option. It was anticlimactic because over the time that I was missing our past relationship, and doing everything in my power to try to get it back together, I had actually matured, and dealt with a lot of the personal issues that I was facing that made our relationship immature and unsustainable in the beginning. The true happiness that I had gotten from that relationship was no longer of value to me; so what I knew would make me happy couldn’t even come close to satisfying me because I didn’t really want it, didn’t need it, and most importantly, it wasn’t for me.

That is an extended short version of a long story; but the gist is that until you take time to truly assess why you, and you alone, are pursuing the happiness you are going after, you are very likely to be running a rat race. And humans can’t possibly be truly happy, euphoric even, at the end of a race for rats.

Just think hard about what is the source of your happiness; if you can easily smile about it, you’re probably on the right track, if not, you may wanna keep on thinking (well, you should keep thinking either way; positive honest thoughts are your friend).